Bloodlust

Yo, yo
Canvas walls breathing slow
Pine drip, cold air flow
I smell the frost - tent light bleed
Hand on the dirt - where's my need?
Reach right - ck - rifle gone
Reach left - ck - bag's gone
Blink
Ceiling white
Light hums long
Not the woods
Something's wrong
Strap locked tight - drawer hum, steel click
Brain fog thick - morphine sick
Hold the tether - don't lose grip
Body says stop, mind says rip
Sound of rain - glass on tin
Face in a window - yeah, I been there again
Flash of chrome - target grin wide
Thousand slaves - each hit his pride
Joker with a kingdom, fiends in rows
Counting lives by the drip he knows
I said - ck, ck, kill, clean, quick
He laughed
He turned
He slick
Pedal slammed, taillight smear
Chase lit red, no fear
Yeah
Rifle gone, pistol in seat
Eyes wide open, breath off-beat
Breathe - ck - kill - ck
Every tick-tick-pulse slick
Tether tight - faith thin thread
War don't sleep - it live in my head
Tick-tock pulse - city breath thin
Wake half-dead - metal in skin
Hold that tether - night still bleeds
Pain ain't gone, it plants new seeds
Kill the fear - kill the calm - kill regret
Blood runs slow, but I ain't dead yet
Tick-tock hum - breath like lead
Hold that tether - move ahead
Windshield cry - wipers drag
Rubber scream - ck - ck - flag
Left lane blur, frost flash blue
Turbo spool, target in view
He's laughin' - mirror grin cracked
"Catch me, ghost," that's the fact
Engine growl - gears grind hard
Street slick glass - life on guard
I see him twitch, lane drift right
Ck - ck - ck - eyes lock tight
Pedal down - fury hums
Metal roars - destiny comes
Rear bumper kiss - siren light
Tires scream white - ck - ignite
Steel fold, window shatters, sparks rain red
Rubber peel off - silence spread
Skid, slide, bounce, bang
Smell of smoke - nerve pang
Glass in teeth, blood on hand
Still breathin'
Still stand
Target spun, hood bent broke
Steam hiss loud, black smoke choke
Didn't mean to kill - just stop the game
But sometimes the tether snaps the chain
Street gone still - echo hum
One more ghost under my thumb
Drag his body - eyes don't blink
Face pale white - blood ink
Rain turns black, night turns mute
Heart still race, hand still shoot
Muzzle flash or memory spark?
Don't know which - everything dark
Silence
Now the air smells bleach, not snow
Walls white, no shadows glow
One eye bandaged, hand still scarred
Hospital hum - peace feels hard
Nurse voice echo - "you're safe now, rest"
Safe? I laugh - beat in chest
Safe's for them that never see war
Me? I keep the tether - forever more
Gun still near - drawer click sound
Pistol cold - comfort found
My hands remember - ck - ck grip
Trigger finger tremor, lips drip
Brothers in my head - cold wind calls
"Hold tight, Olli - we don't fall"
But I'm already halfway gone
Half here, half frost, half war song
Doc says rest, says calm, says peace
He don't know demons don't cease
Every drip from the bag a prayer
Every scar a name I wear
Tick-tock pulse - metallic sin
Wake up rough - fire within
Hold that tether - ain't no rest
Ghosts line up, test by test
Kill the fear - kill the calm - kill the shame
Ollifax breathes - blood and flame
Tick-tock hum - breath on thread
Hold that tether - don't play dead
Ck, ck
Kill, still
Hold
Hold
Tether
I'm never home - but I'm still alive
White walls or warfields - still survive
Yo
Forest gone
Gun still near