Three Seconds

Yeahhh...
Three seconds.
That's the window.
Stand still.
Three seconds - hand twitch, mind split.
I know it's wrong - still I want that hit.
Three seconds - heart lie, nerves beg.
Break the cycle or I break again.
Three seconds.
Don't move.
Don't slip.
Kill the urge - kill the itch.
It come outta nowhere, same old pull,
Same quiet voice sayin' "just this once, fool."
Body lean first, thought lag behind,
Instinct grab the wheel, drag my mind.
I know the cost, I know the debt,
I know the taste of the same regret.
I hate the need, I hate the draw,
But it feel familiar - like a locked-in law.
This ain't about smoke, or drink, or flame,
It's about feedin' the part that stay the same.
Every bad habit wear a different face,
But they all want control of the same damn space.
Three seconds - hand twitch, mind split.
I know it's poison - still I want that hit.
Three seconds - heart lie, nerves beg.
Break the cycle or I break again.
Three seconds.
Hold still.
Clench fist.
Kill the urge - kill the itch.
I dress it up like a harmless move,
Call it stress, call it somethin' to prove.
I tell myself lies I already know,
Same excuse, different road.
I've been here before in a thousand skins,
Different nights, same quiet sin.
Every time I fold I feel it stack,
Like interest growin' on my back.
My body already know the weight,
Muscle memory call it fate.
But fate ain't real - it's just a word
For the moment I forget my worth.
You don't need it.
You survived worse.
Let it pass.
Let it hurt.
Let it hurt.
Three seconds - hand twitch, mind split.
I know it's wrong - still I want that hit.
Three seconds - heart lie, nerves beg.
Break the cycle or I break again.
Three seconds.
Stand down.
Don't bend.
Kill the urge - choose what's next.
I'm tired of losin' to invisible chains,
Tired of callin' weakness a phase.
If I can't win this quiet fight,
Then what I claim in the daylight?
This ain't drama - this is real,
No blood on ground but the damage deal.
I don't need chaos to feel alive,
I don't need ruin to survive.
I drop my hand.
I step away.
Three seconds long.
I steal the day.
Three seconds - hand fall, mind clear.
I still want it - but it don't steer.
Three seconds - urge scream, I don't beg.
I break the cycle.
I choose what's next.
Three seconds.
Let it pass.
I don't slip.
Kill the urge - kill the itch.
Yeahhh...
Three seconds.
That's all it was.
And that's enough.