Three Seconds

Yeahhh.
Three seconds.
That's the window.
Stand still.
Three seconds hand twitch,
mind split.
I know it's wrong
still I want
that hit.
Three seconds heart lie,
nerves beg.
Break the cycle
or I break again.
Three seconds.
Don't move.
Don't slip.
Kill the urge
kill the itch.
It come outta nowhere,
same old pull,
Same quiet voice sayin'
just this once,
fool.
Body lean first,
thought lag behind,
Instinct grab the wheel,
drag my mind.
I know the cost,
I know the debt,
I know the taste
of the same regret.
I hate the need,
I hate the draw,
But it feel familiar
like a locked in law.
This ain't about smoke,
or drink,
or flame,
It's about feedin' the part
that stay the same.
Every bad habit wear
a different face,
But they all want control
of the same damn space.
Three seconds hand twitch,
mind split.
I know it's poison
still I want
that hit.
Three seconds heart lie,
nerves beg.
Break the cycle
or I break again.
Three seconds.
Hold still.
Clench fist.
Kill the urge
kill the itch.
I dress it up
like a harmless move,
Call it stress,
call it somethin' to prove.
I tell myself lies
I already know,
Same excuse,
different road.
I've been here
before in a thousand skins,
Different nights,
same quiet sin.
Every time I fold
I feel it stack,
Like interest growin'
on my back.
My body already
know the weight,
Muscle memory call it fate.
But fate ain't real
it's just a word
For the moment I
forget my worth.
You don't need it.
You survived worse.
Let it pass.
Let it hurt.
Let it hurt.
Three seconds hand twitch,
mind split.
I know it's wrong
still I want
that hit.
Three seconds heart lie,
nerves beg.
Break the cycle
or I break again.
Three seconds.
Stand down.
Don't bend.
Kill the urge
choose what's next.
I'm tired of losin'
to invisible chains,
Tired of callin'
weakness a phase.
If I can't win
this quiet fight,
Then what I claim
in the daylight.
This ain't drama
this is real,
No blood on ground
but the damage deal.
I don't need chaos
to feel alive,
I don't need
ruin to survive.
I drop my hand.
I step away.
Three seconds long.
I steal the day.
Three seconds hand fall,
mind clear.
I still want it
but it don't steer.
Three seconds urge scream,
I don't beg.
I break the cycle.
I choose what's next.
Three seconds.
Let it pass.
I don't slip.
Kill the urge
kill the itch.
Yeahhh.
Three seconds.
That's all it was.
And that's enough.